Growing Up

All kids do, grow up I mean.  My daughter will be two at the end of May.  I know it is cliche to say but where did the time go.  I barely remember the baby who was lifting her head up on day two and never stopped talking.  I was looking through the pictures a few days ago and was so surprised to see this child I barely remember.  She is definitely becoming her own little person.  And the learning curve right now is amazing.  Today she demonstrated the concepts of "me" and wait".  We ask her to wait all the time, so it is not that surprising to hear her yelling it at me as she runs after me.  But it was a bit shocking to have her look at me and ask for something by pointing at herself and saying ME!  It is pure joy and fear when you realize how smart your child already is before the age of two.

This is not who I want to be.

The problem is I don't know who I want to be.  I love reading blogs but it becomes overwhelming when reading all these things that sound so cool.  I want to do it all and be all.  Then I get up in the morning and can't even clean out the sink.  Life can be overwhelming if you let it.  There are so many excuses; too tired, the kid is sick, the husband is sick, the kid wants held.
Now is the time for no more excuses.  So I will start of list of things I am going to do every day.  Even if it is only for 5 minutes.

• Exercise
• Knitting
• Writing (blog or journal)
• Read
• Get outside (walk or yard work or play with Aili or get the mail)
• Sewing
• Practice cake decorating
• Take pictures!  I am going to join other bloggers in a photo day project.
• and last but no least remove unwanted/needed items from my home.

If I take myself literally doing all these things will take 45 minutes of my day.  I can take 45 minutes of my day to make myself feel productive.  So here is the start!  Today I begin to become the person I want to be.